broken wings that beg to fly

November 20, 2007

tomorrow turned into yesterday

Several things happened:
- Sunday went out to have pills and booze and I missed the boat - figuratively speaking (no Gothic Arches)
- Monday was dedicated to a very good lecture concerning rapes and the legislation about them. Then there was the man. You know. The. (no Monday ATC's or Mixed Media Monday)
- Tuesday, which is something I'm currently living through, was the day when I took the cat to the vet. He has flu. The cat, not the vet. Now I'm crying my eyes out for two reasons. Sebastian being the number one. He's quite old, he has chronic renal problems and a virus/bacteria infection was the last thing we needed. (no Twisted Tuesday challenge)
- Wednesday is tomorrow and I WILL BE MISSING THE BOAT. That's the number two reason why I'm crying. I was supposed to go to Lübeck/Germany with my parents from Wed to Sun. We were supposed to have some quality nothing-to-do-time at the boat and then go on a shopping spree in the goth clothes shops downtown, visit the graveyard (I love old graveyards), stay at a top-notch hotel downtown and generally have fun. Relax. I wasn't too keen on the idea of going to anywhere with my parents, but only now I realized how much I had counted on the trip.

I will stay at home taking care of Sebastian. No problem there, my base principle with pets is that if you have one, it takes the priority over everything, but I still would have liked to go. There will be art and I will catch up with all challenges - even only out of mule-headedness and spite - but not today. Today I'm having a huge pity party all by myself.

October 15, 2007

skeleton crew, here I come!

Some time ago I decided to start losing weight. Due to endless stays in various psychiatric wards several years back I gained quite a lot of extra poundage and I'm not happy about that. When I was living in the US about a decade ago I had anorexia and now I have slipped back to the same mode of thinking. At the moment I definitely can lose quite a lot of weight without being considered as an anorectic but my new eating habits are quite alarming. My calorie intake per day is usually something between 500 and 800. It should be about 1500 and on those days when I exercise it should be more. I just don't feel hunger anymore.

October 11, 2007

dead languages and wifebeaters

I had a Latin exam yesterday and it went down the tube. No big surprise, because I have skipped most of the lectures. Oh well, now I just have to do some extra work to catch up. I have always tought that Latin is a cool language. Dark and mysterious and whatnot.

At some point I gave up studying and went shopping instead. I finally found wifebeaters and I just had to buy five of them. Now I can go on looking like a butch.

October 08, 2007

pieces of myself, cut off in desperation

Another imaginary realm of mine is born.
Here you will find art, mad rants and ravings
and if it's your lucky day, maybe a sane word or two.
Just don't hold your breath for it.